…and with that he brought to mind his beloved blood and precious water which he let pour out for love. And with the precious vision he showed his heart quite riven in two…Look how I loved you..How could it now be that you could pray to me for anything that pleased me that I would not very gladly grant you.Julian of Norwich, Revelations of Divine Love – Chapter 24, Long Text.
John 17: 20-21
“And I will pour out on the house of David and the inhabitants of Jerusalem a spirit of grace and supplication. They will look on me, the one they have pierced, and they will mourn for him as one mourns for an only child, and grieve bitterly for him as one grieves for a firstborn son.Zech 12;10
One of the things I love about scripture is how unconsciously accurate an account it is, as both the hypovolemic shock and asphyxiation that Jesus would have suffered during his crucifixion would have led to a pericardial effusion. Simply put, during his agonising death, water would have gathered around the heart that would have later been released as the spear entered that area of Jesus’ body, around his broken heart.
His heart was broken for the love of humanity, and there was no greater expression of that love than to endure his Passion. I often wish I saw my life more through this lens of his suffering love. His action does not represent to me an angry God, nor does it represent a God who would then hold back in his grace and mercy. By fulfilling his prophesy through Zechariah, Jesus demonstrated both the means and attitude of a unity that enables us to boldly approach him in prayer, united in purpose. Anything that pleases him, is ours. What could possibly be his motivation for withholding anything from us that falls in line with his divine purpose and will?
We may never see, let alone understand the fulness of his answers in this life. None the less, he answers. The gap between the two is never a measure of his faithfulness, rather how we approach that gap is a measure of our humility.